why???

Of late, I have come to question why humans are the way they are. Although I am one myself, I can’t find an answer but mere possibilities. Our creator must be a very interesting and complex person beyond our imagination to have even created such a weird and troubled species. There are a few things that I just can’t think through.

1. Why do people prefer very much to go in groups? Especially a moderately big to a big group.

If you have the time, go to the playground and see the children play. No one told them anything but the children will befriend among themselves and start playing as a group or co-operating groups. This grouping thing is a very common thing in the human race. It is the origin of what is now known as a clique has come about.
Well, the thing about me is that I have never been in much of a clique or anything. I am always among the same few friends surely in 2s than in 3s and even more seldom in any no. greater then that. In JC, I tried blending into a group, if there are class outings, old sqd getting together etc, I will try my best to go along and interact instead of just blending into the background which is what people who hardly know me recognise me for. But I observed something which I hate a lot. Well, you see, in a group, there are always some few people that is more influential in the group and their say and their prescence matters the most, those whom I call “leaders”. Do you not notice that the whole group will wait for the leader before they proceed somewhere but if it is just some ordinary fellow in the group, they will merely inform him/her of their plans and just carry on. Do you also not notice that when the leader(s) say that that they should go somewhere to hang out, very seldom do the group don’t end up going there. You see, what I hate about it is that the people in the group do not have a very fair share of say of the doings of the group. The other thing is that the whole group don’t mind doing what the leader(s) say as they themselves do not have the slightest idea of what they can do. So very often, the clique is merely just a group of people who are mindless usually and just followers for they hardly voice their opinions as though they have indeed lost their voice. I very much prefer a much smaller group, there is more decision making together and there is more compromise. The clique scenario definitely cannot be a compromise case as they are clueless themselves in the first place.


2. Why can’t people just do something about their situations instead of staring at it, complaining to the whole wide world about it and continue wallowing in the problem?

Well, first, I must make this clear that the there are some people that are complaining for the sake of complaining or just to make themselves appear lousy in front of others but are actually not the way they claim it to be.
Well, some complain that they are fat and overweight, this and that a whole list of things but are not effectively doing something about it. Usually, they try old worn-out methods and hope that it will work this time when it failed so many times and others merely talk about it. Some complain that they are sensitive to this and that and a whole lot of other things and about how the irritation works up when they used this and that and then they don’t do anything about it. they continue to keep a look out for cheap stuff and are coax into buying something that they don’t really know anything about and then when something happens, they complain and complain and complain and sometimes even blaming someone else for it. The, there are some people that will talk to you about the hard and/or sticky situation that they are in and after a long talk and all the suggestions you give, they don’t intend to do anything to improve the situation, you were merely a kind soul that leant a ear to the seemingly endless talk. God help me. There is certainly a better use of my time dear. They are sitting in a problem that they don’t really have the determination to get themselves out of.


3. Why do people don’t listen to kind advices but when someone else says exactly the same words, you choose to believe the other?

I really don’t get it you know. I got this persons that I know of, allows complaining or feeling inferior about herself. The thing is that when my friend and I try to tell her how she could improve herself she never listens or would say her mother don’t allow her to. I don’t know if she is lying as why won’t you mum let you go do a simple thing say a hair cut that doesn’t cost much? Then when someone else, God knows who just says something nice, immediately she attempts to improve her image.


Actually this 2 entries about why people are the way they are is very much ignited by some fellow I don’t really know why I label the person as a good/close friend. She is sure one puzzling creature who doesn’t respect others. Sometimes, I don’t even know why I care. I must be nuts!!!


PS: If anyone reads my blog at all, can u pls leave a taggy, at least I will know I have visitors.

lies

Human beings are the weirdest creature that live on this Earth. Why do I say that? I believe that you have heard that only humans will lie to the people around them and what’s more sinister is that they will lie even to themselves. Aren’t they weird? I am talking as though I am not a human being myself but because I am one and live among my fellow kind, I know this kind of lie and denial far to well.

Let’s explore the possible reasons that people lie. Well, from the chidren, we can see that humans lie to those around them as they are afraid to face the music or as a means to get themselves out of trouble. Some lie to cover some truth that they are ashamed of. But there still is a very interesting form of lie towards others that is really very mind-bogging. There is a form of lie that is called a kind lie. Puzzling isn’t it? Well, for example, the dish that someone has prepared for you, you know very well that it was too salty or too bitter, you merely say that it is alright or even worst, you say that it is great. Then if someone is dressed in obvious unmatching colours or has a very poor out look that day, you don’t say anything or even worse, you say he/she looks fresh. This argument between telling the truth or protecting the other person’s feelings by telling a lie can go on and on but really, must we lie?

I think human beings have perfected the skill over the thousands of years that they have walked this Earth. They learnt to lie to oneself perfectly well. They lie to themselves about a lot of things. They lie to them seleves that they can really make their dreams come through by repeated doing something a certain way and ignore the kind advices of others and actually take them as unkind comments. They lie to themselves that they are perfectly happy with the way things are in their lives and see to problem in the problems that repeated keep surfacing. They lie to themselves that maybe if they changed, their lost love will come back for them. They lie to themselves that they are pretty or ugly, whether they are fat or thin. They lie to themselves so much that it has become hard to tell that really is and isn’t true. Denial has totally twisted the channel of thought. This can be paint a really sad life.

Well, let’s see. To deny that there is a problem is in itself a problem. Why? Simply because the original or the first problem will never get solved as but only worsen as you do not to acknowledge its existence. By denying a fact or action, it is like throwing a pebble into still waters and the ripples will just go on and on. How much will depend on the size of your pebble.


Why do people then lie to themselves and others? Well, I think that a large part of the reason is because you are really a coward to take up the challenge of saying the truth. Some just conclude that reality is too harsh and that lies anre just something that they keep themselves in just to make themselves better. auiet a cynical idea isit it? But a lot of people do that. Then there is a kinder way to describe this sinful act of lying. Some people claim that they lie to themselves to make themselves feel better, make themselves think that there is still a leeway out, there is hope in a situation that looks really bad. Or is lying just a form of excuse that you make for yourself?

Ask you heart and search your soul. Don’t lie anymore. At least don’t lie to yourself for if you are how can others be truthful towards you?

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I AM SO BORED OF BEING IN THE OFFICE!!!

Man, you know, it's like in the whole month, there will be only a few days whereby you are fully occupied. the rest if the time, there is so many hours of free time, and the internet is only up sometimes and the thing is that even if go online after check my mail I got nothing to do.

wanted to bring my newly bought project, precious moment cross stitch to sew but I think that would be a little too much to do in the office considering that I am a super late queen everyday lor. then. when the internet is working, I will go visit denise and yi shan(VJ)'s blog and read and read. then I am left with nothing to do that I leave the channel news asia webpage running and see the news update and read the aritcles if they interest me. but as you know, I am not the kind that like to read so it's equa; to saying I got nothing to do, just being a little bo liao.

Then, as some of my friends would would know, I actually record nearly all his sms that he sent we ever since day 1 except that time when I service my hp then lost some of the sms. I want to write my sms now but my hp is charging, so maybe in the afternoon bah. then I also cannot write too long caz after some time my eyes will pain and there is nothing to look far in the office. then i will be rubbing my eyes.

hehehe.....these few days it's quiet happy and sad.

if my memory serves me right, you know the rate i forget things, we went out on wed or was it thurs? anyway, it was super duper last minute lor. he guessed that they may be able to go out in the afternoon and say that he will tell me afternoon. then that morning, i went to work, then from abt 12 plus i started sms and calling him but there was no reply or ans at all lor, then i really thought no hope already caz it's like 130 already. then at abt 140, he called and then say he just come back and then i asked to take leave. i wear what i wore for my sis's wedding in the day time. so it was this short plain white skirt, a tube top that is flare with and of white base with blues roses on it, blue necklace. well, i forgot about the ear rings. we met at about three and went to suntec to check their movie timeslots. to our surprise, there was only 3 shows showing, star wars, monster-in-law and some scary show. then we decided not to watch and we went to eat instead, caz he hasn't eatte. we went swensens. after that we went to our usual hangout and boy, was that not in the plan at all becaz he's tired and the time constraint. but it was a nice time out which only lasted a few hours. felt that he really wanted me.Hmmm...thinking back about 1 yr plus ago when i didn't even know how to kiss at all and now..hehe...lots of improvement :) got good teacher then got good student wad. anyway as usual, we cabbed together to near his place then i went to JP to take train home.

had a NPCC gathering with the girls at fish & co at the glass house. a small turn out with. linda and bf, veronica and bf, melissa, theodora, priyanka and of course me. well, it didn't turn out as nice as i thought it would. well, the seat beside me, supposedly left for my bf was empty. opposite was veron and her bf often in their own chatter, and theo who was beside me was talking a lot to melissa. I can't hear beyond that. so i was more or less by myself during dinner. then there was this stupid tv that was just infront and above our heads and when we wanted to leave, they showed the highlights of the match between ac milan and liverpool. they watched quite a bit before we can finally leave. we went to coffee club express near douby ghout and on the way walking there, priyanka was telling me how she spent her time in dubai. i practically stoned there more or less and just went home after that.i didn't want to go clubbing with them caz i am extremely poor this month,tired from my work and am a vain pot. well, you see, if i go clubbing, that means that i gotta wear that makeup that i had since morning even longer than usual and then i will have very little sleep and then i will have pimples and blemishes which will take me a few days to get rid off. i wanted to do the facial but was too lazy that night. sigh, i got some blemishes all over my fae now that i keep eating fried and fast food over the past several meals, low intake of water and the fact that I haven't done my exfoliater thingy and pore refininf mask for more than a week! sigh...must get it done tonight.

then onm saturday night, i was sms-ing him and calling him but he didn't ans or reply till about midnight. then came the surprising good but sticky news. he can go out in the afternoon but i need to be working at IMM Best Denki. but in the end we still went out and the stupid rain, plus he doesn't have an umbrella delayed our meet up at my workplace itself till about 230 plus coming to 3. we took a rtain to city hall, went to gv marina, watched madagascar finally. well, he ws very very unwilling to watch it initially but in the end he gave in. hehehe :) then after that we wanted to buy shin guard for him caz his one break already. we spotted a royal sporting house there and bought from there. we then went to suntec with the intention of dinner. actually wanted to eat food court but it was really really very crowded. afther much deliema, we went to BK. i had the coupons and we ordered meal for 2 whereby he takes the 2 burgers and 1 drink and i am more or less suppose to finish the rest. I am so geeting fat and unhealthy lor. ate BK for lunch on sat and sun and in the end, dinner was also bk lor. siao liao. then we had a little unhappy time caz i wanted to go sky garden to sit a while but he says that he is tired, and tired till he will feel pain if excited and most importantly was anxious to make it back by the given time caz of some stupid $300 finr if you return late. Sigh, like that we spent 5 hours together after a shortest ever meet up since he came back this year. but i always get sad when the hour is drawig near. well, another nice note in the evening was that this time, since we have eaten before going back, he dropped much nearer to his hostel and he told me which unit it was. after he got of the cab, i instructed the taxi driver to drive in to look for the particular apartment and i could see from outside that the guys in the living room was watching some show, probably not properly dressed also. but you know, at least now i know exactly where he stays and how it looks like :)

this blog entry is written in drips and draps over a few boring hours. from lunch time till i am signing off now to start to pack up to go home.